christmas vacation...

oh.. how's your christmas?? mine?? happy...?

we spent our christmas in Montalban with our family. But unfortunately my father was not able to spend his christmas with us.. he's still at work. i met my cousins. and i was surprised because their names was similar to my crushes.. hehehehe. but actually i didn't enjoy there. i'd rather choose to spend christmas in our own house than there. i'm out of place. how about my sister? my brother? they're busy playing computer and always arguing. haay.. i just spent my whole day smiling with them and answering to their questions. what a fuck?! arrgg... i really hate my christmas day.

yesterday i was happy because my father arrived home already and we will celebrate the new year's day together.Ü i'm so happy and until now we're still preparing for that... i also had my new year's resolution. i'd list a lot!!!! hehehehe. i hope that i can do that.....

mOody:(

waah! i can't uderstand myself diz past few days.. i don't know why.. before,, my problems do not affect my attitude,, but now,, it really matters. i can't hide my true feelings especially for my friends.. i was really frank!!! and i hate it!! arrgg!! i know some of them think that i'm so bad or whatever!! it's because of my actions.. sometimes i'm really tactless but i'm sensitive,, sometimes i'm very happy and super L****!!! i know some of my friends and classmates didn't understand me.. and with that,, they will hate me..

*SoRry..*


that's what i want to say to everyone!!! i'm really really sorry... i just can't control my attitudes.. and it's ok if some of you are traitors!!
but thanks a lot to those who understand and still love me!

i'm so lost.....

mejo matagal na ring walang pasok... nakakatamad sa house namin,, walang magawa! miss na miss ko na classmates ko.. nakakamiss din pala.... hehehehe.Ü lalo na mga friends ko... CHUPACHUPZ 2 (lorraine,sarah,angel,elysia,rc and shempre ako.Ü) sobrang dami na naming moments.... we've been friends since last year! haay.... mejo sad pa ko,, kc.. wala akong lovlyf. :( i'm happy for being single pero iba pren ung feeling pag may nagpapasaya sau. pero that's fine. before i was happy with someone.. pero nagsisi lang ako kasi super minahal ko yung taong na akala ko mahal din ako, but i was wrong! ginamit nya lang ako para pagselosin ung totoong mahal nya, ansakit sa kin pero i still need to move on dahil di lang sha ang lalaki sa mundo! pero mahirap pala talaga kalimutan ang taong minahal mo ng sobra... pero sabi nga nila it takes time,, so until now tinatago ko pa rin ung true feelings ko.. and parang nakktkot ng magmahal ulit ee. kasi sobrang hirap pla masaktan! wala kang magawa kundi umiyak.. pero hindi ko pinagsisisihan na iwanan sha dahil ngayon nalaman ko na talagang my decision was right! sa ngayon di ko muna kelangan ng love.. i'm happy with maii FRIENDS. they're always there for me.... may tamang panahon 4 that,, cguro kaya ako minalas kasi mashado akong agressive! at inaamin ko yun. mashadon kong ngmamadali. my dad was right. kung nkinig lang sana ako sa kanya e di sana di ako nahihirapan ngayon na kalimutan ang past ko... kaya it serves as a lesson for me... hehehehehe.Ü nmimiss ko na magbasa!!! buong vacation kasi puro gala, kain, tulog lang ako.. tamad akong mag-aral ee... haaay.. so i will promise myself to change for the better!.Ü para nman matuwa na parents ko sa 'kin! puro problema na lang dinadala ko sa kanila ee....